the blueshift journal
blueshift / ˈblo͞oˌSHift / noun
the displacement of the spectrum to shorter wavelengths in the light coming from distant celestial objects moving toward the observer.
(Leaving Asheville, NC, again)
I would like to say the wind doesn’t move through me,
that I don’t respond to such things. That I don’t stare at a field
of flowers or pole beans or even the ubiquitous corn. That
I don’t feel the flatness of land with relief and want to run
and run and run across it the way I want to cry in the woods,
to cry without stopping because I can’t imagine how someone
might escape through them. Because I know I am descended
from those who couldn’t escape. Every place sets my teeth
on edge. I take it all in like needles like air whipped up
my nostrils as it rounds the corner of a brick building,
like a thumb in my mouth and honey from the jar
on the end of it. The righteous and the wrong. All
of it enters “the way bells enter” the waiting ear on a
Sunday morning, or the birds that wake me when I am
sleeping by the window or the moan of the neighbors
or my own. How can you strike the balance when you can’t
separate yourself from anything or anyone – I am not safe
any place, and no place can save me. Just look what the mountains
have done to me. Exactly what the city did – and then some.