the blueshift journal
blueshift / ˈblo͞oˌSHift / noun
the displacement of the spectrum to shorter wavelengths in the light coming from distant celestial objects moving toward the observer.
Bone Broth
Mia Leonin
It begins with a recipe. No, it begins with a phone call.
Aunt Frances calls from the cosmos’ first flicker –
when animals stood up on hind legs, gawking
hang-jawed at the stars.
Aunt Frances calls
and sighs her breath of blood orange
and sardines into the phone.
Her moon is a blind man’s thumb
in a forest. Her star, the rusted spur
of a forgotten Sunday afternoon movie.
Aunt Frances calls, all mush-mouthed and grackled.
Her punctuation, her parentheses even,
sinks between the ellipses of her meds.
After all these years, her mind still can’t drown itself.
It bobs to the surface: seven hospitalizations
and thirty-two electroshock treatments in three months.
As a child, I held my bladder to avoid the uterus-shaped rubber bag
hanging in her bathroom, its tubes snaking within the folds
of the mold-splotched shower curtain.
Collapsed sack, moon sickness, hysteria –
Grandmother heckled.
Mother rolled her eyes.
Aunt Frances commanded nothing.
The cockroaches didn’t even scatter
when she shook a cereal box.
As steam rises from a boiling pot
and stuns the window, I too will rise
and write my aunt’s name against the cold.
I will make her a soup.
I’ll roast sturdy femurs of lamb and mutton with dried rosemary.
I’ll cover their bones with cold spring water
and stir clockwise until the broth boils.
For three days this broth will bubble
until bones soften to flesh, indentations
appear to the touch.
I will make her a soup.
Bone marrow will congeal and seep strength
into her blood. Minerals and amino acids
will leach into her organism.
Aunt Francis’ mind has circled the cure
these many decades:
Lithium, Lexapro, Paxil, Zoloft.
Her Nurse Ratched
was never movie trivia:
They’d just tackle and zap us with no anesthesia.
I will make her a soup.
I’ll pour broth and bones
through cheesecloth
and squeeze out the good.
May lymph and liver flush away her woes.
May thyroid metabolize her testimony:
she was the family snow globe,
a transparent sphere, shaken
and set down in a faraway corner.
Aunt Frances and I are the only family we have left.
Into the broth, I will lower precious stones: ruby
to fortify her blood, sapphire to sharpen her mind,
emerald to honor her birth.
I’ll pick the partridge clean of its ribcage,
add turnip and rutabaga,
root bags of cruciferous earth nuzzlers.
I’ll place gold ducats
and laurel-stamped doubloons
at the bottom of her bowl.
May this soup’s estuaries swift her away on a pontoon
of seared sunlight and yellow jonquils.
As a child, Aunt Frances stared
at a strand of her hair, pulling it
like a lost guitar chord snapped into silence.
Baptismal comb raked over her scalp. Liturgical scissors
snipping kyrie, kyrie. A cascade of water passed over
Aunt Frances’ head, the knotted and coarse made clean.
May her spleen Zeitgeist her most humiliating memories:
she danced the watusi,
her yellow-crocheted bikini
dripping into the snow.
Her cupid lips bellowed operatic
as she threatened my mother with a steak knife.
At Christmas she mailed us exquisitely wrapped TV dinners.
Aunt Frances: I want to stuff your pockets with stones
to see if you float, drown,
or finally save yourself.
Instead, I will drop stones into your soup.
Soaked and scrubbed,
an explosion trillions of years ago, blasted
minuscule craters and unseen ridges
into these stones, like you,
the stuff of stars.