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If you could see where I learned to cook

Emily O'Neill

 

sousing for my gram & I sing her French love songs I can’t translate / she knows

 

 

its about eyes & bones & beds I think / how embarrassing to not speak

 

 

 

the language, to undress parsley of yellow leaves & crave your tile island

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

how we don’t speak when eating / the coal quiet / sage leaves soft as rabbit

 

 

 

fur / shredded over risotto you are probably eating right now

 

 

 

in Chicago / I had rice for dinner too / from a freezer

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

bag / she’s been cooking three generations & is too tired for big meals

 

 

 

two consecutive nights / I take down the big knife, think

 

 

 

I’m helping & regret that I step outside myself so quickly

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

table where my plate would go cold & wait for me all night

 

 

 

until breakfast / each portion hard & dry & still mine / nothing like

 

 

 

the farrow dish we ordered twice / chestnuts & an open hand

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

waiting to take whatever is left / Gram carved pork into the pan

 

 

 

from the back of the fridge, pulled paring knife into her thumb again

 

 

 

again / two rabbits in the yard / a hutch she calls The Rabbit Taj Mahal

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

we had a rabbit meatballs that night, yes? / I can still keep consistent

 

 

 

enough to eyeball a 1/4 cup of diced onion exactly / it makes her proud

 

 

 

to see me snapping walnuts down to dust by hand

 

 

PHOTO CREDIT: ALEX MEDIATE

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