the blueshift journal
blueshift / ˈblo͞oˌSHift / noun
the displacement of the spectrum to shorter wavelengths in the light coming from distant celestial objects moving toward the observer.
NO ACCIDENT
CHRISTINA IM
The city sinks, unblooms. How human do I need to be
for this. I can tell the war stories. Paraphrase
the blood-feathered sky. Pull it to its feet
—by the throat. I can deliver Busan thick
with screams in the shape of a single
candle flame. One second. The body will only
stay in the air for as long as you ask it to.
The body will only stay. Did I ever explain?
The word for oxygen is also the word for grave.
There’s a Korean film where the zombies
almost make it to the city’s gray walls. But the girl
makes it first. But the man on the train still loves her
and she can’t see it in his eyes. The girl
always makes it first and so all war stories end.
And so the train stops and the light in my hand
chases all the red to the edge of the screen,
where a father waits for his girl but the walls
are bone now and so, so high. He’ll
keep looking, I know it, but the fire is back
and his memory’s failing and these limbs
weren’t grown for murder, melting. How human
do I need to be. I could stop this now.
Lift the curtain, lower the gun. Walk into
the crowd with my head steel-knotted
to the ceiling. The city would forgive.
Listen: I’m not asking for a home,
only a place to point to on the map,
in a crowded theater. Not for an anthem,
only a line in the sand. I can tell
all the stories. I am owed a birthplace,
a bullet, three seconds longer. Busan
doesn’t love me anymore and I can see that
in her eyes. But I’ve made it. But I’m trembling.
But I remember the way blood tastes
on trains. Listen: I’m folding my wounds
away from the light. I’m not asking for much,
only everything.